Dear weixiong commented that my songs made he feel that he's attending a funeral. Hence I had added 2 more songs! =))

How to Save a Life by The Fray
Littlest Things by Lily Allen

Today's a exciting day!

I kicked start the day with some FYP things, and well, went to get my CHICKEN RICE, POPIAH, and DUA BEI. Muahahhas.

MerMer Called!

Apparently, she did not know how to get to ECP, and needed the ECP guru's help. I noticed that i was not much help since she ended up taking a cab. Thats her & me! Well, MQSJ, if you are reading this, i tell u! This is the only decent foto that we have! u better meet me more and camwhore wif me non-stop!


Gosh, im not a les. and we both love man.

Mer, thanks for enlightening & reminding me how "vegetable" i am and also my short shelf life. I shall not try very hard to prove you wrong since you are not trying very hard to prove me wrong (on the fact that you are dumb) either. Hahahs. =)

MUACKZ! Eventually we will all get what we want in life. Even when the future may seems to be bleak, and the journey is tough and arduous, we will get there! Find your Happiness =))



Afterwhich, i had planed an exciting shopping trip with Tracy and Mum.


That's Tracy and me in Iluma, the new shopping in Bugis!


there are still many shops yet to be open in Iluma, but i believe that it would not be a very exciting place since the place is huge but the number of shops are not alot.

Yet, i do enjoy the ambient and the overall concept and interior design of the place

CNT WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK TO COME.

Mon - Exciting Outing =)
Tue - Nail Extension, Shopping, Hair Cut XD
Wed - Work + FYP + Work =S
Thur - FYP + Training =S
Fri - Free XD

OMG! RBF! Siti Zawiyah, WE ARE SO GG TO ENJOY OURSELVES!
I need to get dresses.. need to get my paws on em.. need to do the manicure.. need to cut hair.. need to enjoy my day wif u... hahahhas yesh! i cant contain my excitement at the very thoughts of gossiping and shopping.

Tue - 26 May 09


Smiles! =))
Among all our hectic schedule, we managed to meet tgr at Jurong Point yesterday!
The reason for meeting up is cuz Chen, aka, Hua, is gg off to Taiwan for army training..

After which we went to the arcade =) reminds us of the good old times that we had during secondary school when we would bring our class tees and extra pants to hang out at the arcade after school.. Omg, and i DDM. like some ah lian. hahahas. Took some random pics here and there. A last shot before we leave since mer is in a hurry. JY mer!

Afterwhich chen and jin came over for icecream. Its the first time Chen come my house! hahahs, and he actually commented that i had a neat room. ^^

Personally, i do not think that my room is messy, i guess theres just too many junks in my room.
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Food for thought.

How would it be when you realized that your life is a sham? Would you cry and continue decieving yourself? Or would you realized ur mistake and get the hell out of the situation, with regrets? How many people can actually feel the least and get on with life?

I was surprised by my own reaction. I had always knew that i was strong. But it was till the point of unfeeling which scares me. Perhaps i had always knew it deep down, had always expected it. I start to hate the word, responsibility, in terms of love.

Lesson that i had learnt would be.. trust your gut feelings, get on with life.

Its OVER.

Its SICKENING.

Perhaps those who had a glimpse of my team today would have less than perfect understanding about my day. Since the saying goes.. " if you never try, you would never know." =S

After the FYP meeting in the morning, the team is dis-motivated to go class. somehow i had a bad feeling about meeting in the morning. since we would all be tempted to PAWN, after FYP. However i find today's meeting rather concise and constructive. We manage to have a clear direction and WEEE~ Started on writing the Report already. XD

My kid called in and told me that he would be tired after his remidail.. blah blah blah.. dident believe a single shit. He's just trying to wriggle his way out of tuition.
Still, i enjoyed my night off watching SPIDER MAN 2

Somehow i realized that i stop blogging about food stuffs recently. trust me, i am so gg to do it tmr, when im gg to meet wif MER, JIN & CHEN. OMGOMG!

Im so excited! Ther would be tonnes to be posted tmr. Yeshh!



Special thanks to Ken! Hahahas, the lemon sweets made my day when i hav to face shit in class. XD click here if u wann to know more, its handmade, and they do customize ^^

I realized that i did not complete the following

❤ Eating Marvarllous Cream(omg! wed!)
❤Paint (this sat or sun maybe?)
❤Spa (still waiting for minah)
❤Nail Extension - 2/6

Holidays soon! YAY! looking forward to the activities ahead =p

22May - (mis)Adventure.

As my usual routine, its ecp, after cycling to a secluded area, i would sit down and start sketching or thinking.

I found out that i had already reached a decision long before i started thinking. when i thought of the person i love, his face was not there. and that is when i knew that what that had kept me going all these while is hopes and dreams. Its also a pity, after so many years, it did not work out.

rather coincidentally , just when i had decided that i would want to complete the deed that very night. but he actually asked me out this sunday. instead of the joy that i had felt previously, i dread saying yes.

yet i cannot picture myself with him anymore, its painful for me to acknowledge that the only form of communication that we had is now in shreds. We stop replying each other's sms. From a pathetic number of 3-6, it became 1. and i am well aware that he may sms and communicate with any of his random friends more than me.

This makes me understand deeper what am i exactly to him.

Without love or passion. there is simply no reason for me to stay. and i am not going to delude myself any further.




22 May - Night Adventure

Went out wif timo, after getting home, cleaned and ate dinner. Y do i meet him? well its for the ultimate bitching session.Forgive me for being lazy due to the recent depression, if you want to know more about the night, click here.



I need to SHOP. BADLY. and i need to EAT. BADLY. i need a HUG. BADLY TOO.

I am sick and tired of everything. I need a break from the world.

AND I AM GG FOR AN ADVENTURE TMR. TO EXPLORE THE WORLD..



In the meantime, I will pray to god, and hope that he hears me.
Because I realized that my desire for this to come to an end is greater than me wanting to continue it.

My heart is decaying fast and good. Just the way I want it to be.

Sun - 17 May 09

It was Bakerzin @ NP with mum!
Its not very worthwhile since its weekend and theses no student discount of 50% :((
Yet, it was some wonderful time that we had to spend a lazy afternoon. Besides the fact that the staff are so... =.= ... they did not even give us any menu, and expect us to order! What a joke.

The food are pretty normal, thus not much to comment on. Enjoy your visual feast ppl! =)

Taught, Slept, Mugged.

Its a simple sat where i did mundane things like teaching.
*Guilty Looks*
I was dozing off while teaching due to insufficient sleep last night.

Special thanks to "the candleprince, timomo", who called me at an ungodly hour - 1.51am last night to chit chat. Yes, timomo, if u are reading this,
I AM COMPLAINING, BUT I DID ENJOY THE CHAT. :)

After teaching for 5 hours straight, i decided to pamper myself with a short nap. Perhaps being deprived from proper sleep for the entire week, i fell into a deep slumber and did not wake up to go Sembawang Shopping Centre. :S

I MISSED STARBUCKS COFFEE. and of course, MUGGING at STARBUCKS COFFEE..

Okay, so i ended up mugging at home. which was pretty ineffective since, i know myself too well. I cannot conentrade when there's VICE all around me. VICE such as bed, tv, books, FOOD, last but not least, BLOGS.>.<


Warning~Depressing Content Ahead~Warning



I finally came to peace with my own heart. After weeks and months of struggling, I made a decision. Unlike most people who like live in delusion, I am a practical person, I need tangible and intengible products. Not mindless musing and imagination.

Stop seeing any future for us. He do seem to care, however talk is still cheap. There is love between us, but not connection. And up till now, it simply appears to be "a facebook status". Perhaps, the reason for us being back together after so many years, is simply the chance for us to say our goodbyes properly.

Finally, i realized the reason why i find it hard to talk him about the realtionship. After so long, i forgot that, i want to love the person for who he is, not who i want him to be. Perhaps that is why i never tried have a talk before, until him. Which indeed went against my principles. Thus I have decided. I do not wish to "talk" ever again. Since the change would be unwilling and he would not be the person that i love anymore.. ..

It could all boil down to us not suitable for each other at first..

I need to stop thinking about what might had been and what could have be.
According to my favourite quote, "if its meant to be, it will be."

Yang said that this is setting an expiry date.
And, Yes, i set a date.

RISK today. I start understand as i feel the wonders Zawi and Ken's EXPERIENCE with their Teammates. Lets call them "le forgetful" and "le empty".

As their name suggest, "le forgetful" is very forgetful. She forgot that she had a body part which is very useful, which make her a little handicapped compare to the rest of us. As for "le empty", well, nothing much, she's just empty.

I would dread and fill my mouth with foams of disgust if I ever had the chance to team with them ever again.

Its FYP meets tdy! However, its special since we are conducting on site survey in Marina Barrage.

Its my 3rd time to the Barrage, YET. I think i am still very in LOVE with the place! ❤
Its a place great for family and friends gathering.

The gals(sihui, wanting, anne, stace, zawi and me) went for Popeye at Changi Airport T3 after that. Its truely yummy! I am so addicted to biscuits that they serve! Another not to be missed food would be the mash potato. There's an exotic taste to it and the best part is there are small bits of potato in the mixture itself that gives the food more texture and also taste!

Special Thanks to Sihui for sending the team ard :))

All of a sudden, i feel random, so i came up with a wish list to be done by this month!

To Do List

❤ Eating Marvarllous Cream
❤Watch any random movie as long as i get to sit in some cinema
❤Cycling Trip
❤Paint
❤Spa
❤Nail Extension! >.< OMGOMG

It don't seems long does it? and i shall work hard for em :)

Its MICE(Meetings, Incentives, Convention and Exhibition), today.

Finally, it does not feels like HTM(Hospitality and Tourism Management), which makes the lesson pretty interesting! Just imagine having TWO DIFFERENT MODULES, going through the same CONTENT.

I realized that if I want to sleep early tonight, I will have to blog now or it would be too late for me since im teaching till 10 pm. Its tough but well.. I guess its all worthwhile after seeing your kids excel, be it in terms of life or study. :)

Just some food for thoughts.

I saw a RP Faci couple kissing each other goodbye at the E2 Lobby. Im not going to rant about SCHOOL RULES OR PDA(public display of affection).

Personally, I felt quite shocked and also at the same time touched by the heart warming scene. Questions start to form in my head and I begin to realize how much courage and love is needed for a couple at their age(around mid 30s) to display their love and affection in front of strangers, not to mention that they may be their students.

Would you do it? Holding hands of your love, even when you are old and grey, kissing each other in front of your grandchildren?

In a RELATIONSHIP, most people would have LOVE, but not COURAGE.

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Zawi told me about the video Janie Leong showed her class, where people lived in poverty and that even lead to them GARBAGE from the RUBBISH BIN.

Its not special since in countires such as Africa, hundreds and thousands of people dying each day due to starvation.

But it was a rude awakening when she told me these people actually PRAYED, thanking GOD for their "FOOD' before they eat.

Call it whatever you want. Dumbstruck, Taken Aback, Speechless or Confounded.

The FAITH that they have is so profound. Something which normal people would not realize. I do not have any religion, but i do believe in "upper power", but still, i do not think that i would not waver at times like that...

And today is our 3rd mth anniversary. Without any acknowledgment nor affection, my mind began to wander. Could he be nonchalant and unfeeling? Could I had done something more? Or I am as guilty as he was? My Heart seems to drift further and further away. I read the poem that I had written for him, "与你分离的第九天，若我把你的脸渐渐忘记， 我会努力提醒自己，我爱你...", all of a sudden, these string of words just lost their meaning.. I realized that could not understand or relate to love anymore...

Today's FYP meets was rather uneventful, besides the fact that our advisor tried to smoke us with random sub-standard reports.

But i should say that she had also put in alot of effort going through our survey and interview questions with us, even when she does not know much, i can see that she's trying :S. She even came up with excuse to help taj! "Family Matters" she said.

The EXCITING thing of the day starts when ittsss.............


Dinner at SUN Japanese Dining. YES! After long weeks of planning, it finally came true. The blonde side of me was really elated when i found out that its fine dining since i will be able to wear the dress from F21(i love F21), which was brought for my CNY. The sad thing is i never had a chance to wear it till today!

It was another 10 Course Meal, with 8 Mains, and 2 Desserts. It added up to the grand total of $142.95(after 50% discount).

I should say that i was not a great fan of japanese food, in fact i have a phobia for cold food and slimy food, since sushi and sashimi are all cold and slimy, I had always thought that jap food was not for me.

Ever since the recent mother's day celebration, my and espically, after today's dinner, my perception changed. Jap food can be warm, and tasty! Oooishi Neah!

All the dishes are so good, and espically when its worth every cent of our money, unlike Kuranonaka, who uses substandard ingredients, Sun, uses the finest ingredients. Furthermore, theres special dishes such as Tofu Cheesecake, Beef and Foie Gras Grill. However my personal FAVOURITE is still the Buta Sakura Mushi(Fatty Pork with Sakura Leaf) & Hotate Spicy Cream(Scalop in Spicy Cream)!

The feeling of the fatty pork melting in my mouth was incredible! Espically when the unorthodox taste of Sakura leaf with it, the mustard even added a tingy stensation to the dish, making it addictive!

Miss Clarity Cafe, Where Happy People Meet...

Its a really pinkish place, with loads of pink decor, such as pink table, pink lamp, service staff wearing pink...

I am tempted to blog this post in pink, but on second thoughts, i think... it will be very difficult to be read.

Yes, this is the restaurant that Weelic brought me to today. It is located at Upper Thomson Road, along the long stretch of the shop houses and restaurants, a "landmark" would be the Long House Kopitiam.

Besides pinkish, the place is rather dark.. or what most people would call it romantic. I was pretty surprised that Weelic actually knew a place like this! Another outlet would be at Purvis Street, in Bugis area, at some random shop houses beside Mind's Cafe.

The food was pretty decent, both of us ordered set meal which include a pre-starter, starter(choice of soup or salad), Main Course(which is a HUGE range), a dessert(butter and bread pudding or icecream) and drink(coffee or tea), just for $15.80!

I think the food is really nice! I had fish and chips while Weelic had rosted chicken leg. His chicken leg is abit tough though, but my fish does not have any weird fishy smell, really crispy and the portion for both of our food is rather big, but still i am proud to say that i managed to finish the entire course! =)

Their garden salad had a really curious dressing, which is both tasty and appetizing at the same time, besides from the fact that its a little oily. I liked it nevertheless..

Here goes! Some photos of my dinner!

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