Sunday, February 14, 2010
there goes my pathetic 20th birthday.
well, it aint officially over yet, but i am certainly not expecting anything fun or exciting.
perhaps i am swallowing in self pity. its certainly the right occasion to do so. well, it aint so bad last night.
i certainly had great fun with merlyn, chen lei and jingkai last night, having a lan trip and drinking session under mer's block. it was really a great celebration! (: they even got a slice of apple crumble cheese cake for me. THANKS GUYS, LOVE U ALL!
i got dead drunk after the drinking session. perhaps its better then seeing Chen puking so many times throughout the session. oh boy it was really fun! we should really do it again soon! after mer and jin's graduation. got, really drunk and all thanks to jin and chen, who send me home so sweetly after tt. (:
after waking up, i guess its where the boredom starts, stayed in mum's room the entire day watching TV. =( we did get out for a movie and some coffee. after that, i played sims till now.
really saddening. haas. ironic to my last birthday, a trip to ice skating, museum and a dinner in bishan.
gotta do something constructive tmr! MUST! or i shal tryy..
Dreamt at
10:20 PM
Thursday, February 11, 2010
im currently waiting for my video to load! so here i am writing a short blog post!
new yrs coming! so i have decided to do a number of things during t
his free time
- crochet a realllllly cute doll for baby
- draw draw draw! fine arts
- set up another blog- hopefully
- visit the IR
Gogogogo!
(: today is our 8 month together. but it still seems like yesterday when we first met, first went out for our first date, had our first squabble.
happy 8th mth ani weei. (: prepared a present for u! hahas. hope that you will like it. xoxo
Dreamt at
11:33 AM
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Travel in STYLE with SMRT PRESTIGE
i was in a hurry to go home yesterday night from nafa. amazingly. i managed to get a cab even in the cbd area within 2 mins.
I WAS GREETED BY A HORRIBLE SURPRISE.
okay, okay. let me explain the situation clearly.
1. i was in a hurry
2. the opposite direction of traffic have really glaring lights
3. i cnt see anything but the word "taxi"
4. i flag the cab - SMRT Prestige
5. was rolling my eyes in horror!
6. dun know a single shit abt Pestige Cab
7. Shock of my life realizing that the flag down fee is $5!
8. Shock of my life again when i found out that it increases at 0.30 per tick!
9. $3 for CBD extra charge!
10. $1 for ERP!
11. Going to have a nervous breakdown any moment looking at the meter the whole journey bk
12. Reach home with a grand total of $27.50
the whole journey cost 150% - 180% of the average usual cabs.
so if you ever wanna travel in style with SMRT? Think twice. or maybe thrice!
Dreamt at
2:58 PM
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
I cnt believe, after 4 long months not posting anything here in this blog, im actually writing it in the middle of the night, simply because i cnt slp and there is nothing else which is able to entertain me.
lol. how ironic, where by not so long ago, i was still sacrificing my sleep to put up post here..
2 more days and it marks the end of the 3 year poly life which i had lead. well, some may cry as there are too much happy memories, too much happiness and joy. others may simply look back as, 3 years of life spent.
for me, it is simply a small backward glance which, it does contains lots of memories, mostly pleasant but as before, they simply means a part of me, a part of my past. many people may have found new friends, or even start a strong friendship in their poly life, but what i see behind me is simply a stepping stone to something even greater in life. i do bring many precious lessons about life home, which i feel, is somewhat other places can never teach me.
but at the end of the day. nothing seems to matter. as long as i get what i want in future phases in life. it may be deemed as heartless, or unfeeling.. but i always know better, how much i care.. when for people that does not understand, everything is insignificant to me. but, yet i know, all that i dun wish to care about of consider not having in my life, is simply because, they will be too much for me to lose.
not as if anyone would understand after me writing it down.
but what i want to do right now is to capture this feeling of helplessness. becoz what happens in the real world is, you do not have the power to control what new twist and turn life have in for you. what you can only do,
is to
accept it,
adapt it
and live with it.
some people run away from it..
some people faced it bravely..
some people, does not see whats coming..
many people were make or break in this way. people who can handle it, became the best. people who tries their best but still cnt really do it, are people who are mediocre, people who cannot take it, are people who now live in the streets or in the mental hospital.
i am not saying this because, resigning to fate is what i am good at. in fact, the best that i am at is to defy fate. defy. but there are jus times where by you know, with all the power you have in your hands, you can change things, environment and in fact EVERYTHING!
EVERYTHING, but PEOPLE.
perhaps that is why, i agree with someone's famous quote, "Hope are for the Hopeless". you can never ever hope for the better, hope for change, hope for what you wish to come true. because, when you do that, it really shows how helpless you are. how hopeless you've become.
i know deep down inside, i will have to fight anything if i want to happen. but still. i hope, i dream. simply because, i feel helpless.
and i dream..
Come Away With Me lyrics
Songwriters: Jones, Norah;Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song
Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies
And I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come?
Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you
And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me
Dreamt at
3:46 AM
