Sunday, May 17, 2009
Taught, Slept, Mugged.Its a simple sat where i did mundane things like teaching.
*Guilty Looks*I was dozing off while teaching due to insufficient sleep last night.
Special thanks to "the candleprince, timomo", who called me at an ungodly hour - 1.51am last night to chit chat. Yes, timomo, if u are reading this,
I AM COMPLAINING, BUT I DID ENJOY THE CHAT. :)After teaching for 5 hours straight, i decided to pamper myself with a short nap. Perhaps being deprived from proper sleep for the entire week, i fell into a deep slumber and did not wake up to go Sembawang Shopping Centre. :S
I MISSED STARBUCKS COFFEE. and of course,
MUGGING at
STARBUCKS COFFEE..Okay, so i ended up mugging at home. which was pretty ineffective since, i know myself too well. I cannot conentrade when there's
VICE all around me.
VICE such as bed, tv, books,
FOOD, last but not least,
BLOGS.>.<
Warning~Depressing Content Ahead~Warning 
I finally came to peace with my own heart. After weeks and months of struggling, I made a decision. Unlike most people who like live in delusion, I am a practical person, I need tangible and intengible products. Not mindless musing and imagination.
Stop seeing any future for us. He do seem to care, however talk is still cheap. There is love between us, but not connection. And up till now, it simply appears to be "a facebook status". Perhaps, the reason for us being back together after so many years, is simply the chance for us to say our goodbyes properly.
Finally, i realized the reason why i find it hard to talk him about the realtionship. After so long, i forgot that, i want to love the person for who he is, not who i want him to be. Perhaps that is why i never tried have a talk before, until him. Which indeed went against my principles. Thus I have decided. I do not wish to "talk" ever again. Since the change would be unwilling and he would not be the person that i love anymore.. ..
It could all boil down to us not suitable for each other at first.. I need to stop thinking about what might had been and what could have be.
According to my favourite quote, "if its meant to be, it will be."
Yang said that this is setting an expiry date.
And, Yes, i set a date.
Dreamt at
1:00 AM
